I currently work as a coverage pharmacist for an oncology group, which has in house pharmacies in their clinics all over the state of Texas. I do travel a lot for work, which makes it hard for my social life. But, I love the perks that come with the traveling, I meet with interesting new people at each site that I cover, and I have learned so many new techniques and information at each site. I really do love my job.

I have been asked to take over a site, and stop traveling. I would be in charge of that pharmacy. It would get me off the road, which will improve my social life (supposedly), and I can have a normal routine. However, I would give up the travel perks (goodbye, points, and elite status!)

As a coverage pharmacist, all I had to do was complete the duties of a pharmacist, not of a manager. I was basically there to keep the pharmacy doors open. I didn’t have (as many) responsibilities as a manager.

Deep down, I am scared of taking this position. I would be the pharmacy manager. I would be supervising technicians, and make sure the pharmacy follows all the rules and regulations. I had to organize and make sure all the paperwork was in check. If anything wrong happens at the pharmacy, it would be on me. Would I be able to do all that?

My regional managers all think I would do well at the site they want me to take over, but yes, I do have a lot of self doubt. I’m sure many of you have the same self doubt when given a new opportunity, whether it is a promotion with your current employer, or something new altogether. Tell me, what did you do when you had a new opportunity come your way?

 

 

Wise Words from Steve Jobs

“Your work is going to be fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on.”

Steve Jobs has been a great influence to many people, especially in his last years of life. I definitely look back at this quote when I question my choices in my career. The truth is, in the pharmacy world, how many people really keep looking until they find the work that they are truly satisfied in? One that will utilize their skills and passions together?

Most pharmacists that I know actually just end up settling. Some are fortunate enough to find their dream position; I can finally say that I am one of them. But most feel stuck and unfulfilled in their positions. Those that feel stuck do not even know where to start looking. They are bound by either their financial obligations, or perceived lack of skills. So, how can they keep looking until they find something they love to do?

This is why networking is crucial, especially in today’s job market. How do you know what is truly out there, until you talk to someone who has been doing it for years? In pharmacy school, we are programmed that there are mainly 2 pharmacy settings: retail and hospital. I’m in a very unique hybrid setting of retail/infusion/clinical. I would not have known about this setting if it were not for my friend and mentor telling me.

I would also advise job seekers to not let your perceived lack of skills be considered a big weakness. Actually, it can be used as a big strength. I had no experience or knowledge about oncology (except the week that was taught in pharmacy school). Because I do have a personal interest in oncology, I was willing to learn about it. Currently, I’m proficient in it, although I am not Yoda (we have a colleague that is, and I do reach out to her if I cannot find the answer myself). If it is your passion, or vested interest, you can acquire the skills needed to perform the position you are seeking. Most employers are also looking for valuable members of their organization who are trainable and willing to learn.

I hope that present and future pharmacists do not believe that there are only certain positions that they can hold. Pharmacy is a very broad industry, ranging from the traditional settings, like hospital and retail, to the unique setting like oncology clinic. There are also other industries that could benefit with a pharmacy background, like insurance and research and development. It really just depends what the job seeker perceives as great work to him/her.

I’ll leave another great Steve Jobs quote: “Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.”

Fear … of success?

I haven’t posted much lately, because of all the changes I’m trying to incorporate in my life. I know that reaching out to other professionals and helping them achieve their career goals, or help them find and be successful in their new careers is my ultimate dream, but sometimes life just get in the way.

But does it really? Does life really get in the way? I had talked to my coach earlier in the week, and honestly, even though I am incorporating lifestyle changes (like working out at least 4 days a week, and being more social whenever I’m not out of town for work, and try dating), I could still make time for my own coaching business. So, what really is stopping me?

I learned that fear is what is stopping me. To be more specific, the fear of success. Most have a fear of failure, which is why they do not start their goals in the first place. Both fears have the same result: distraction, aka LIFE.

I had excuses of my friend visiting me from out of town, or I’m working out of town, or I’m trying to go to the gym. Then I realized that if something is important to me, I WILL make the time to go do it. For example, I told my friend that I wanted to get some gym time in. The original plan was for her to come with me. In the end, I ended going to the gym, while she went to an evening church service nearby. The point is, even though she was out of town visiting me, and I was entertaining her, we both found ways to achieve our goals.

I wish I could say I had an epiphany and tell everyone that I overcame my fear and now I’m going to be the best career coach ever. Sadly, that is not the case. I am FAR from overcoming my fear, and lots of other fears keep popping up. However, I have the greatest blessings by having people around who love me and support my goals. Because of them, I am able to get myself back on track on certain goals, and hopefully overcome some of the fears that are blocking my success.

I’m sure many people can relate to the fear that blocks their success, whether it be fear of failure of fear of success. Either way, they make themselves busy with other distractions, and use life as an excuse. I hope they can share their stories of how they overcame their fears and push through achieving their goals. I could definitely use some inspiration.

In the meantime, even though Texas has been experiencing multiple 100+ degree weather and no rain in sight, I still find time to enjoy the nature park near my friend’s house.

 

 

Moving On Up

My coach and mentor posted on social media that he had turned in his resignation at his current position. He is giving up his full time position as an anticoagulation pharmacist at the VA to become an entrepreneur full time. I am very excited for him and his journey, and I am very happy that I get to see him from the sidelines. A, you’ve been successful in your endeavor so far; I know you’ll go on to create more opportunities for yourself and for others.

When I read that post, it got me thinking about my own pharmacy journey, as well as my general life path. Am I truly happy with where I am right now? The answer is yes and no. I am very lucky to be in a job that I love. To be honest, I love my job most of the time; there are some times when I hate it. I have a job where I am challenged mentally, my schedule is normal business hours, I have great rapport with the physicians and nurses, the patients are grateful for my help and expertise, my colleagues and managers are always there whenever I need them, and the technicians I work with are extremely hardworking and loyal. Seems like every pharmacist’s dream job, right?

So why am I not truly happy where I am right now? There are so many reasons. The first reason is the direction that pharmacy is heading towards right now. There are too many players in the pharmacy game, and most of them are not even pharmacists. We are constantly fighting with the PBMs (pharmacy benefit managers; these are the companies that take care of the prescription insurance claims). Most of the medications dispensed in our pharmacies are high cost anti-cancer medications, they cost $5,000 to $20,000 per month. So of course we are fighting for reimbursement, and the right to dispense at our pharmacy, instead of forcing the patients to use their mail order specialty pharmacies. It gets REALLY hot here in Texas (we’ve already had several days in a row where the high has been over 100 degrees), and leaving medications out on the porch in this heat, or in a non climate controlled area, is just a waste of money, time, and resources (if a medication gets too hot, it can lose its efficacy). Patients then can get unexpected delays in their treatments, or their out-of-pocket costs are too high. This is especially true for Medicare patients, who are exempt from taking advantage of copay cards or other assistance from the drug manufacturers. It does break my heart to see patients unable to get their medications because they cannot afford it.

The biggest reason is that I feel like I’m not doing enough to make an impact in the world. Don’t get me wrong, I love being a pharmacist, especially in the oncology setting. I love the path that pharmacy journey has taken me. I am definitely a well rounded pharmacist, because of my experiences; I do not have a narrow field of vision when it comes to pharmacy, which is a dangerous risk with those who specialize. However, I love helping people realize their dreams or overcoming their limitations. I have helped friends and strangers overcome fears and limiting perspectives, and they’ve had their lives change for the better. But I always feel like I can do …. more. I could help more people realize their potential. I could guide more people to find what their true passion is in life. I could advise more people to take the necessary steps needed to get their dream job. More importantly, I can help MYSELF more by sharing my wisdom and talent so others can achieve their goals and dreams.

I’m hoping to follow A’s footsteps, but in my own journey. A has done incredibly well for himself, but I know that his path is not my path. My path will lead me to my own success and experiences. Nonetheless, words cannot express how grateful I am for A’s guidance in my journey.

Until then, I’ll just keep singing the “The Jeffersons” theme song in my head. For those who don’t know what I’m talking about, here is the link:¬†https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L09qnRfZY-k